I remember seeing my reflection in it;
and your laughter, your joy.
I saw you in your eyes,
everything you are, and everything you wanted to be.
I saw your spirit to live,
to take life as it comes,
the strength to fight, to love
as madly as you could, in the wildest dreams.
In your eyes, I saw everything I wanted to be,
everything I would spend the rest of my life trying to be.
But not anymore.
No longer does the spirit live,
No longer does the strength to love exist.
In those eyes, I see the sickness of the heart,
I see the pain that you've hid all these years from me.
I see the tears,
I see the shattered hope.
I see the reflection of my helplessness,
I see my inability to reach out.
I see the lost smile in your eyes.
In your eyes, my dear mother,
I see a lost smile.
And all I want is to find that,
and bring it back,
for I know, that if not anything,
it is one thing that'll keep you, me, us,